I believe that every girl has their doubts on their life. What
outfit they decide to buy, what to go with their friends for Christmas, and who
they want to be with. Now, the thing is, I don't have my doubts, for the most
part. I have my wants. And my wants are crushing my soul. Why is it that I
can't hold onto the decent guy? But maybe they were never decent to begin with,
and that's why they are gone. But just everywhere I turn and think "I can
see myself with him" it goes way into my heart and stabs it and crushes my
dreams and starts all over again.
Now, any guy that I don't care for, at
all, is a total creep, and then is really weird or just a dick completely.
What I want is to find a good man that I truly
care for, while I am still in college. But as my time is running out, I do not
believe that is going to happen... I am afraid that I won’t even find my
soulmate. At the same time, my school isn't known for their relationships, and
I have come to terms with that. It's just, I still am a girl, and have hopes
and sees everyone else finding their soulmate, and grabbing onto a man. And
here I am: making the same mistakes, and getting nowhere.
But who else can I blame, but myself.
Now, I'm going to end this pity story now
before I keep going. I don't want to say anymore tonight, because I already
know that my blogs give out too much information.
So, I must say, have a good night. And
Merry Christmas!
