So, Saturday around 930, Erik was texting me saying, so I thought that he got off in half an hour and we would figure out something to do tonight.. Andit was like 10:20, and I still hadn't heard from Erik, and I was freaking the fuck out.. I was just thinking bad upon myself. Like no one liked me, even Erik, who I actually really am starting to like a lot, didn't want to hang out with me. And then I went back and re read the texts, and it was an hour and a half until he was off work and I calmed down and laughed at myself for being so paranoid. But Ashli got back from her date, which was apparently not the best. and she got back a little before 11 and I think and Erik was already on his way to get me.
Ashli did come with me to go over there and Josh stay awake and we watched a movie...
Before I got thtere Erik had called me asking if I could get a ride, but I couldn't. The reason he wasn't going to be able to come was because he was low on gas and he gave Josh $20 and he blew it, and so he had $5 until the next day. I told him to come get me and I will pay for gas. He was against it at first, but finally came. Then Ashli came with us and wanted to get food. When we first got in the car, he had said something about, if we see anyone with a cigarette if we could ask for one for him. And so when we stopped at the gas station, Ashli owed me money, so I asked her to get him cigs. And she said she didn't have her ID so I went and grabbed mine. And I knew which cigs he liked and got him a pack of them. And so when we were going to jump in the car these guy didn't know where they were going and asked where some clubs were, and I told them to go to Ybor. And they were on their way. I got in the car and gave him the cigs, and he was just so happy.. I don't know, he was so cute, he was like "Oh my god, you got me cigs?? I think I have a wedding ring in here somewhere." He just grabbed my hand so caringly... I don't know.. He's just so adorable. We got back to his place and started the movie.
Erik and I cuddled on one side of the couch and Ashli and Josh awkwardly sat together on the other side. See Ashli and Josh arn't like Erik and I. Erik and I like each other. And Ashli and Josh are... Fuck buddies. I'm kind of happy that Ashli can go over there with me. But at the same time, it's not like I feel awkward going over there just being me.
But we watched a movie, Pineapple Express, and then when it was about nearly over Erik was like "Are you tired?" And I was just like "... Isn't it almost over?" and Ashli agreed, and we stayed until t was officially over, 5 minutes later. And we went to bed. I didn't get much sleep that night, I kept tossing and turning, and I felt bad, because I'm pretty sure that kept Erik up too... And he did need sleep, because he wasn't feeling good... And I stayed awake until about 9 a.m. and then fell asleep until about 11:20 a.m. it was so nice. And we woke up and just talked for a bit, or he kind of tried to go back to sleep. We finally got up, because Josh was up and kinda yelled at Erik for turning off the A/C and we went out there and started talking, then Erik wanted to take a shower. He jumped in the shower then you here him shout "Where the fuck is my shampoo?!?!" and Josh just jumped up cracking up and ran to his room and grabbed it, and went and gave it to him. e jumped out and we left to go back home.. Then Ashli asked if we were going to eat, and she meant on campus, and Josh he was like "Oh, can we??" and then Ashli actually said "Well, on campus" and Josh was okay with that and I was surprised and I said "yeah, if you want a bagel, yea you can park and eat with us." So, that's what we did. He parked, and we walked to Vaughn to get food, then went up to our room to eat, and he borrowed my computer to do some homework, and then he left maybe about 45 minutes after being here... And him leaving is what made me the happiest person in the world... Not in a way that I was happy that he was leaving! Just how he left... He left his phone at his place, so we get to his car, and we jump in, and he thanked me for breakfast, and leaned in to give me a kiss. And I don't know why, but just a sweet little peck, it just makes me feel like we could really workout... Then he drove around to the front of the school were he dropped me off, and where he was able to get out okay. I mean he was holding my hand and everything and we were talking, and I thanked him for coming over and getting me, and he said that it was he that should be thanking me, because I got him gas, and that he owes me dinner... And maybe that's why I was so happy, because that would be a date... I'd actually be going on my first like real cute date! I don't know... But then he leans in again and we kissed good bye, and he was like "You better text me!" I don't know why... But that just made me happier too, because he wants to hear from me, and he's not running away... And I just said "Well, I would, but I would but I don't think you'll reply." And he was like "Okay, wait an hour and then text me." and I just thought that was the perfect way to end our little morning together... I'm so happy right now... I'm not with him. I know this. But maybe it is getting to be close to that point... Maybe not. But I'm almost positive we will end up dating, hopefully... Knocking on wood, but I'm just getting excited... I don't know why..
Well, yes I do. I will finally have my first relationship that I will absolutely love from the start again. Just like I did with Kevin. I haven't been excited for an actual relationship in forever... I don't know. But I'm excited.
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