Time to Write

Yesterday was a mind blow experience...
Well, let me start from the beginning and talk about Tuesday night.
Tuesday I just got back onto campus from eating inner with my mom and my sisters boyfriend, I might just start calling him my brother-in-law, because that's what he is. So, I was walking into my building and I hear someone laugh. And it really sounded like Josh's laugh. So, I mean I didn't do anything. Just thought "Hey someone has Josh's laugh!" And then I walk out to go and print something and I just see Josh sitting with this girl from one of my classes, Amy, and Devon. And Devon is someone that I have always been attracted to, I don't know why. He's not insanely cute or anything, but I think he is. So, I walk past and I paused, and Josh started to laugh. And I was like, why are you here? And he was like "I know these guys!" and I told him that I swore I just heard his laugh and that's crazy, and I texted Ashli saying Josh was here, because it was really freaking random.
Then the next morning, Erik texted me asking if I finished my mid term, because Amy was asking, and then Amy got my number and started to texting me. And was needing some of the questions, and I told her once she gets on campus we can meet up and share our answers. So, she gets on campus, and we meet up and had a crazy thing of how we both know these random guys from Kentucky.. And she even said that Erik said he was hooking up with a girl name Josee, and she was like "Oh I know a Josee, but it couldn't be the same one" But it was... Because it was me! Oh my goodness... Then she called over this girl, who I used to hang out with, and still kind of friends with, Caitlin, and then I got to find out that she fucked Erik. So, that was fun... Not. But I really don't care. Honestly, I'm not sure why. But I'm not jealous, I'm not worried. I feel like we don't need to worry about anything. And Caitlin is kind of a slut... So, it really doesn't matter to me. I doubt it meant anything to either one of them, and I've had sex with other people too, and so I can't judge for something I have done.
Lindsay thinks otherwise... She was like "Oh have you found a guy?" And I'm like "Well... Erik." And she was like "Well, other than the fact that he's nasty. I mean he's fine." and I'm like nasty? How is he nasty? And she just said because he fucked people at our school, and I corrected her and said one other person. And that I have a history too, and it doesn't bother me.
Also Tuesday Dan texted me again, saying he misses me, and thinks about me everyday, and wants me back. Like he broke up with me, and like I want to get back with him. What a fucker. I didn't text back, and honestly I hadn't seen him since like a week after our break up and of course, Tuesday I saw him. Oh well. He's only hurting himself. We broke up over a month and a half ago. Which is longer than our relationship was anyways!
And then yesterday I was just not really dealing with crap well, so I texted Kevin... Because I hadn't heard from him in a while. And that was a nice chat...
And then also yesterday Mark texted me... And I went with the "Nothing even happened" way of talking with him. And we might hang out on Saturday night and have a little sleepover... So, I mean, I think balancing Erik and Mark out will make me not really want one of them a lot. But of course I'm still kind of hoping that Erik asks me out, or asks me to be his girlfriend... But at the same time. I still don't know if I want to be in a relationship. Maybe I will find out this weekend. But maybe not.
Other than that.... I texted Erik this morning asking if he thinks we will hang out tonight, and he said that he gets off work at 9:30.. So, that's a yes :) So, I'm super excited.

So, right now, I have a full weekend. So, that's a good thing. And I'm happy. I just hope I don't mess anything up.