Saturday, March 22, 2014

Well then.

So, Sunday and Monday night we went to Erik's and Josh's. And on Monday we actually stayed all night there. I hooked up with Erik of course, Ashli hooked up with Josh, and Lindsay hooked up with Dustin. It kind of worked out... I actually asked Erik if he could text Lindsay and invite us over so we would have a ride there, and he didn't and we left soon after... And bare with me, I mean.. This will be hard because it is Saturday and I have to go through my whole week with you guys...
Monday was still like a little weird between Erik and I, and of course I don't know how to respond or act around him at this point, and it didn't seem like he was getting that close to us... Once we got to their place, I think I first sat down on the couch and only Josh was there for a few minutes. Then Erik came out so I got up to the stools, and he was in the kitchen sitting on the counter, so not even like looks over at me or anything... Then we started to drink and play kings again. I drank a lot more that night than I did the night before. I don't know how it ended up this way my I was on the side of the couch and Erik was in the middle of the couch and Ashli and Josh were sitting next to each other on the floor but not really close to each other: they had a good foot in between them. Then Erik casually put his arm like stretched out on the couch, and when he did, I was already like on the edge of the couch, sitting up so I like gracefully slide back to have him arm behind me and kind of having us just sitting together and cuddling. That was when Erik and I were telling Ashli to make a move, but now that I think about it, we should have been telling Josh to make a move. But then Erik was telling Ashli she should just go and kiss him, and of course Ashlis like "No way" and then Erik and I were talking and he was like let's make it less awkward for them, and comes in to kiss me, and we made out for a few minutes and then I guess Lindsay and her drunk ass was in Erik's room again with Dustin. And Erik got them out, and we went in. We had sex once, then calmed down for a bit and cuddled and kissed some more and talked. Then we eventually went back to making out hard core, and had sex again... We eventually fell asleep a long while later. Then in the morning I went out to the living room to get my phone, and that's when I saw just Dustin and Lindsay on the floor and no sight of Josh and Ashli.
Then I went back to Erik's room and we cuddled for a bit.. And right now on Monday all I thought of Erik was just a fuck. A really really cute fuck. And Ashli texted me saying that she was up, then Lindsay started to wake up and texted asking if we should leave now, and I was telling Erik this, and he told me to say 20 more minutes. And I did. And it was so funny because then we started to make out, and I got on top of him, and he started to take off my shirt, and then I helped him and completely took it off he he said "Thank god you didn't say "We don't have enough time!"" and we both laughed and continued to make out and kind of did a quickie. But that was just a normal time for Dan and I to have sex, in my opinion.
But I guess during that time, Lindsay was texting Ashli saying "OMG they are fucking, and I already heard them last night too." Then we got dressed and went into the living room, and Lindsay was saying that her and Dustin had anal sex. And like everyone flipped shit. Dustin was still asleep though.
Then we headed out... And I drove home because Lindsay was practically blind.
Tuesday night we were texted, Erik and I that is, and I said "Too bad we couldn't make it three days in a row.." and then he was like "I can come and get you" and t was already almost midnight. So, no that didn't happen.
Wednesday Night I had plans to hang out with Mark... And around like 8 Erik texted me asking if I wanted to come over, and I told him I had plans to meet a friend, and he was like okay... And Then I sent mark a snap chat and he saw it a little while later and thirty mins went by and he didn't text or anything and it was getting to be past 9. So I texted him and was like "Hey if you don't want to hang out today, can you just tell me now?" and he was like "Yeah.. Sorry, I had a long/rough day, and I'm just going to do some hw and have a floor meeting." and so I just said "K" and he replied with a fucking sad face and I said "It's fine. Just wish you would have said something earlier." and then he replies with "You're right, that was wrong of me. I'm sorry :/" and I just replied that it was fine... And I still haven't heard from him. I am still deciding how I will talk to him next time he texts me or something. I don't think I should be bitchy, even though I want to sooo fucking bad. And the thing is that I want to be bitchy, probably because, well it's because I started to like him, and that fucking hurt, he wasn't even going to text me!!! Like what fuck face doesn't even text saying "Hey sorry tonight's not a good night!"? Pisses me off so  bad. But I feel like it's supposed to such a minor thing, because it's not even like we are talking to each other, we are like semi friends with benefits. And if I blow off on him, then he probably will think "Why is she blowing this thing up, it wasn't that big of a deal" and I feel like I should just get over myself and say that I'm over it, and that I made other plans, only because I texted him that time, and if I waited any fucking longer I wouldn't of had plans. And wouldn't have been just sitting in my room all sad and alone.
But I did text Erik back asking if it were too late, and he said no, and that he would come get me in 15 minutes. So, He came about an hour later, and I honestly thought it was just going to be us two. But when I got there Dustin and Josh was there, which isn't a problem. They started to talk and I just heard Dustin say that "She was joking" and Josh was like "No she wasn't, Josee tell him!" And I was like "What?" and the conversation of Lindsay came up and I was like "Didn't you butt fuck her?" And he was like "No! She's kidding!" And I was like "No. She's dead serious, she thinks that you butt fucked her." And he was like "Well, apparently she doesn't know the difference between her butt and vagina. We did doggie, and I guess that why she was so confused, because I told her to turn over, and she was like what? And I told her to get on her knees, and she was again like "what?" and I just grab her and put her into the position. I guess she really was a virgin." Thus came up to Lindsay not being butt fucked two days ago... And I started to text her that or whatever and she got confused and was saying it was def her ass, and I was like "well he swears its not" and I was done with the convo and said by.
But then they left and Erik went to smoke out of their boiler. And he asked if I wanted to, and I said no. Because I really don't like to smoke and then fuck. And he died laughing. And we didn't even sit together or anything, we sat on opposite sides of the couch, and we just chat and talked, while he was smoking. Then the guys came back, and they brought some movies with them. And then they put on "The last hour" and it was like the worst movie ever made. And Erik fell asleep in the middle of it. Maybe even before the 1st 3rd of it. And then he woke up in like the last 45 minutes of it and was like "Are you tired?" and I wasn't so I said no. And he was like "Oh. You're not?" And I joked with him and was like "I'm exhausted" and then he asked if I was interested in the movie, and I said yes, it's so fascinating. And they I laughed and said no.  We went into his room to call it a night. We fucked of course. Now this night... This night I realized I was starting to like him. And of course it's only been like a week since we started to "talk"? We were talking afterwards, about "Wiener dogs" and he was like "what are they called?" and was saying a non-existent word. And I was like "The proper term, would be Dachshund." and just his look he gave me, it was so hot... and he grabbed me and was like "The proper term, huh?" and we started to make out. He told me that correcting him like that had turned him on so much. But we didn't have sex, honestly I don't think I could handle that much more. But it was just... I don't know.. I just loved that look that he gave me... I don't know.. I guess it turned me on too.. But he was exhausted too, and he was falling asleep, and I asked him if he had any glasses, and he said "Fuck no" and I was like "No, I mean like cups, I'm thirsty" and he said while rolling over "No I think those actors don't belong in that movie" and then went to the corner of the bed.. And passed out. It was so cute. I got up.. And earlier he had given me one of his shirts to wear.. Which I love... Oh, my goodness. I just love wearing a guys T-shirt. And I mean I have only really worn Dan's Jacket. And I don't know. But I just like it. So I put on some pants, and went out to the living room, kinda slowly, only because I didn't want to wake up Erik. And I just hear Josh say "Come on out..." And I popped my head out and asked if they and any cups and he just looks at me, and Dustin's like "Don't look at me, I don't live here" And they had some gas station cups that were empty on their table so I grabbed one, and rinsed it out and filled it with water. Then I went back to the room, and when I did Josh was rolling a blunt. And I went to go to sleep but I was just wide asleep. I don't know why. So, Like not even three minutes later I went back out and asked Josh if I could smoke with them. And he was like "Sure". so I smoked and they started watching We're the Millers. And I love that movie, but all of a sudden I got really light headed and said thank you to Josh and good night to the both of them and passed out next to Erik...
The next morning we woke up.. And we said good morning, and I told him about his crazy sleep talking, and he was like "I don't remember saying that." And we laughed. And normally when I cuddle, I like to put my head on the guys chest and have my leg on his and have my hand on his chest, because I like petting his chest with my thumb... I know it's weird, but it's how I am. And sometimes, I get uncomfortable and we eventually stop cuddling, and it's more comfy for me to face away from him, because it's my normal side of sleeping on. But he came up behind me and we spooned, I would have never expected him to do that, but it was a nice surprise... I don't know...
Then Thursday Ashli and I went there and we watched Thor 2, Josh had fallen asleep before Ashli even got there, and I felt bad, and I actually fallen asleep during it, And I guess at the end Erik woke me up. And we went to his room and Ashli stayed and slept on the couch. But we didn't have sex that night or the next morning. And that because he was sick, and I was also sick, because of him. I mean we kissed a little, but no clothes were removed, which was fine. It was nice. And I wasn't feeling well either, so it wasn't like I was really horny and wasn't getting what I wanted. And that night Ashli was on the couch, so I'm happy he didn't want to do anything because I would feel really bad if she like started to hear us while she was trying to sleep...  We just cuddled for the most part, and then around 6 there was people screaming outside, so we woke up, and he spooned me again, and was like "I'm sorry, that this wasn't worth it." and then "You can tell me if it wasn't, I won't start crying." and I just said "It is worth it, I like hanging out with you" and he said that he liked hanging out with me too... And we went back to sleep for a little bit.
He ended up going to like a job interview and they wanted him to start right then, so we took a cab home. Which was fine. But I really haven't heard from him since yesterday morning... I'm hoping that he doesn't have to work on Sunday's and that he'll invite us over, even though Ashli has a little date planned with Alex. But I still would like to see Erik..

I don't know. Wish me luck. I'm trying not to get too attached, because normally that just gets me hurt.

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